I had my post planned today, actually I have the majority of my posts planned a few months in advance, one of the fundamentals I like to run with these days in building my creative healing business.
Yet today has been a day that has just made me stop.
We heard some really, really, very sad news this morning about our cousin passing away and he was only 54 about to start his life again back in the UK having been in USA for 9 years. It has made me stop and look for the joy around me.
It makes me realise AGAIN, that we really do have only one chance at living this life and when we (I) put off all the desires, this Miss Julia is not going to get another chance.
I am working very hard behind the scenes, creating my next two online teaching programmes, developing business systems, soul portrait healing, collaborating with other wonderful women, coaching clients online and around the world, healing clients in my studio, creating new art, redesigning my website and generally being MissJuliaMonkeyChatterBrainWhoDoesn't SwitchOFF.
Yet, Today, it just hit me like a full weight.
I feel bush tuckered and worn down, so much so, that I know I have to "Up the Love of Myself" and somehow take some time out to nurture, restore, rebalance.
In all my support and mentoring, I need to take some Miss Julia advice and just stop.
Difficult when there's so much to do.
But then as we know only too well .....
"We are Human Beings, not Human Doings."
(Peter Russell 2004 From Science to God.)
I want to stop and enjoy what's left of the summer here in the UK as I am already nearing the new academic year of careers coaching.
Only the other day I wrote myself A Longing and it seems fitting to honour it here.
I long for space and light,
to see the sea and smell the freshness
to walk in fields of green
and feel the plump grass beneath my feet.
I long to sit besides a fresh waterfall, noticing
the liquid glide through the rock
with my feet and legs gently dangling in.
I long to lay back on a soft blanket
reading stories and drinking cool iced tea
shaded by the flapping of a home made fabric awning.
I long to sit for hours with my beloved
sharing dreams, our legs entwined and our hands, held
I long to natter with creative souls
sharing teapot moments, exchanging our hearts' desire,
immersed in fabric, canvas and paint.
I long to surround myself with fur family
of all shapes and sizes; dogs that bounce and adore
cats who lounge and purr, donkeys who call me from my garden home
chickens who ease us into our day.
I long to shake my bootie to belly dancing beats
while circling and dancing with hoops that light up the night sky.
I long for space on shelves and organised boxes
the use of cupboards under the stairs and a storage that smiles
I long for naked drawings and hours sauntering round museums
and art galleries, sketching shape and form, drinking vanilla coffee
and treating on luscious cake.
I long to feel peace within my heart every morning as I wake
to feel that joy and blessing of being here, breathing into
the true potential that is within my very core.
I long for silence and stillness to read this over and over again
to believe that all this is possible.
We really do have to make room for these Longings because we really do have only one chance.
What are you longing?
Do you dare to write them down? Care to share in the comments below?
PS You may be wondering where does 'Miss Julia' come from? Well, I was nicknamed it in New Mexico back in 2004, when I attended the 6th International Conference of Science and Consciousness in Albuquerque. One of the true highlights in my life, visiting Santa Fe and Taos, travelling round this state on my own in a hire car armed with my medicine cards at the ready and exploring self.
One day, I ended up in Borders, with my new buddies, where I saw a range of books, featuring the adventures of Miss Julia ...... Wow, it just seemed so fitting and apt.
Hence, from that day forward, I became Miss Julia.