JULIA HARVEY DESIGNS
  • Home
  • Gallery
  • About
    • Press
    • Testimonials
  • Shop
  • Illustration & Design
    • Muse Mantras
    • Portraits
    • Weddings
    • Corporate
    • Business
    • Muse Mantra Deck
  • Blog
  • Contact
  • Home
  • Gallery
  • About
    • Press
    • Testimonials
  • Shop
  • Illustration & Design
    • Muse Mantras
    • Portraits
    • Weddings
    • Corporate
    • Business
    • Muse Mantra Deck
  • Blog
  • Contact
Search

Honouring My Calling  and Doing What I Love - how this gives me goosebumps

28/5/2013

0 Comments

 
These past 8 months since I have been honouring my calling.  

Since October I have been stepping forward and being making sure that I stay true to developing my creative healing business.  

I diverted slightly from the route of careers and life coaching and stepped forward into spirituality, healing art and working with women on a daily basis. 


Last week, I was interviewed by Gennifer Carragher from The Red Road.  She asked me 8 questions and I go into things in quite alot of detail.  

  1. Tell me about your work?
  2. How did you get started?
  3. Can you talk about your creative process.
  4. How do you deal with creative blocks?
  5. Where do you find your inspiration?
  6. What do you love most about what you do?
  7. How do you promote your work? What marketing tips do you have for others?
  8. What advice would you give someone who wants to follow a similar path?

If you'd like to know a bit more about me and the process of Soul Portrait Healing, then go check me out over here.  Just click on the image and it will speedily take you there.
Picture
CLICK
0 Comments

Starting to BE ok with who you are. Right now.

6/5/2013

16 Comments

 
Are you ok with who you are today? Right now?  I ask myself this question every day.  

Yes, every day.  

I often feel empty and I have to really ask myself if I'm ok.  I have felt something missing for the last 15 years and trying to find the words to share it really has been difficult.  

You see, everyone sees me as someone who's strong, together, positive, always smiling.  

This is pretty much true but deep inside me, I feel empty.  
Every day.
I have to make a real effort:



"How can I help you today Julia?  What is it you need? What can I do?"

So let me do my best to try and explain this empty feeling.  

When I was a young woman of 20 I became very ill, really debilitated with M.E. (myalgic encephaloymelitis).  I was chronically fatigued and very ill for 9 years in total.  It was a gradual progression to heal - about 6 years - to find my way back to health. 

I made discoveries, I turned corners and faced brick walls, and I found complementary methods to heal.  

During this time, as I was beginning to find wellness again, I married a man I had met through my illness, whom I adored.  I wanted a long and happy life with him, babies, furry family, love and laughter.

That was not to be.  I had married a man unable to be close, intimate, or sexual. 


I felt unworthy, unloved and unsexy.  

After 6 years married and 9 years together, I chose to leave at the age of 34 and took a risk, a big leap into the unknown.

I found myself again.  It was tough, but I did it.  Again, I healed myself.

Fast forward 4 more years, aged 37 I was blessed to meet my cornish earth warrior, who later became my husband, I discovered that babies were not going to be on the horizon.  We tried, we had some intervention but it just hasn't happened. 

So here I am, now nearly 45, living my life without children, without the family picture I thought would be. Every day I feel empty, like something is missing. 
Every day I seek something out to fill the gap.  
Sometimes good, sometimes not so good.  
Something that can help me fill the inner void.

I never thought my life would be without family around me.  I always thought I would have my children with me.  

This isn't about what I can do about this - it's about the feeling inside.  I know the strategies and the where's and whynots.


We have thought of adoption (I'm adopted and know the beauty of this love and am so blessed and fortunate to have a loving family.)  


I take each day, one at a time and work out how I can move through this.  Moving through this life without being a mother of humans (ok I know I'm a cat mama and soon to be dog mama again). 

I am trying to feel sensual and sexual, when there's an empty feeling inside of me.  

I am healing, again - the soreness of this pain, every day.  Using creative art and Reiki healing to fill the gap.

Every day is a reminder and sometimes I retreat.

Somedays I feel motherly - when I'm with my furry girl(s)
Somedays I feel feminine - when I put on clothes that carress me
Somedays I feel inspired - when I birth a new drawing
Somedays I feel peaceful - when I truly accept that it just is 
Somedays I feel divine - when I believe I am a whole woman
Somedays I feel heard - when someone really hears me.

I am feeling more and more that I have to accept this - who I am right now.
Instead of always wanting to be... wanting to be ... wanting to be .... a mother

My art saves me, heals me and helps me to connect with other women and families.  To give me a sense of joy. 



It makes me look at myself as a Woman first and accept who I am. (I told you this was big stuff) 

Over the years people have said to me "Oh I didn't think you wanted children?" 

Over the years people just never ask.

Hearing mother, calling
Whispering my name.
She beckons me.
I look inside, only to find
It is is me, calling my own name.
The woman, who needs to hear,
The sound of her own children
Laughing, joyful, messing
The woman, who knows, that
Children from the belly
Won't appear.
The woman, who desperately wants
To cease berating herself
Because of it.
Many see her as self contained
Ok, happy, content
Depending on the day
Somedays true.
Somedays not.

Here I sit, knowing
I have no place to go
Except sit here, with me
Being OK with Who I am Today.

* * * * 

The process of loving ourselves right in this moment can be tough.  
Yet it's the first step in healing. 

We need a whole toolkit to help us through the day.  I have spent the last 25 years gathering my toolkit supplies and I probably will continue to do so for the next 25.  

Somedays, I forget to use these supplies in my kit bag.  I need a reminder.

  • Do you often forget that you feel better with a Salt Bath?  
  • Do you often forget that eating a nourishing meal makes you feel so much better than a tonne of biscuits or a bottle of red wine?  
  • Do you often forget that wearing clothes that make you feel your beautiful form will take you through your day, in a better way, rather than putting on the same things that make you feel crap?  
  • Do you often forget that washing your hair and taking the time to properly blow dry it, makes you feel so much better?
  • Do you often forget that just walking on grass, grounds you?  
  • Do you often forget that you need peace and quiet? I mean real peace. 
Picture
Let me know, what do you often forget, why not share in the comments below. 

Much love
Julia xxx


keep updated with dolly Art weekly, every wednesday.

16 Comments

    ARCHIVES

    June 2017
    May 2017
    April 2017
    July 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    December 2015
    November 2015
    October 2015
    September 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    April 2014
    March 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013
    July 2013
    June 2013
    May 2013
    April 2013
    March 2013

Terms + Conditions                               Privacy Policy
© Julia Harvey 2010-2021All Rights Reserved 
Thanks to Mel Cunningham for photos of Julia and Vera Hillen for photos of The Muse Mantra Deck
  • Home
  • Gallery
  • About
    • Press
    • Testimonials
  • Shop
  • Illustration & Design
    • Muse Mantras
    • Portraits
    • Weddings
    • Corporate
    • Business
    • Muse Mantra Deck
  • Blog
  • Contact